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Harmalas + DMT - Buoyant Boundlessness

By Bonné on Friday, 05 June 2015, hits: 7784

Members of the DMT-Nexus are frequently exploring new and novel ways to administer psychedelics. This is particularly true in the case of ayahuasca, as preparation of an effective brew can take the better part of a day and is almost certain to cause uncomfortable nausea. For some, all of that is just part of the experience; preparing the brew, the unpleasant taste, the stomach/bowel discomfort…Yet many others may find these qualities undesirable and would instead prefer a quicker and more reliable way to experience the effects of ayahuasca. This is precisely what pharmahuasca offers.

Traditionally, ayahuasca is prepared by combining a DMT plant source with a plant that contains an MAOI/RIMA, which makes the DMT orally active. Modern extraction teks have provided us with the ability to obtain relatively pure extracts of both DMT and the harmalas commonly found in ayahuasca brews. In its freebase form, DMT can be vaporized to produce the intense but short-lived experience that it has become infamous for. Harmalas can be taken on their own in a number of different ways to facilitate mildly psychedelic, introspective, and dream-like states of mind. They can produce nausea and at high doses they are capable of inducing visionary experiences. Harmalas are currently being explored on the Nexus for their potential medicinal and therapeutic applications.

These two extracts (DMT and harmalas) can be combined, usually in pill form, to produce a sort of “pseudo-synthetic” version of ayahuasca, known as pharmahuasca. The advantages to this route of administration are many. For one, swallowing a pill or two is much easier for some than trying to bear the taste of ayahuasca, which is known for its thick and pungent, earthy, dirt-like taste. Pharmahausca is also easier on the stomach than a traditional brew, though it is still likely to cause some stomach discomfort and purging. Lastly, and perhaps most importantly, this method allows for more precise and accurate, reliable dosing. A difference of just 50mg of either DMT or harmalas can drastically alter the content and intensity of an experience. A weighed dose of DMT/harmala extract is going to be much more consistent than a measured amount of vine or root-bark, as alkaloid concentration varies from one sample of plant to another. While dosing pharmahuasca correctly can presuppose a bit of a learning curve, it lends itself easily to analytic inquiry and has consistently provided a practical way to administer oral DMT.

The following report is that of Bonné, a DMT-Nexus member and enthusiastic explorer of Hyperspace, whose first experience with pharmahuasca paints a vivid picture of what other first-timers might expect from this unique route of administration.
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The purpose of this trip was to have my first encounter with orally ingested DMT (pharmahuasca). For a long time I’ve wanted to span out the DMT experience by ingesting it orally so that I could partake in a more personal investigation that would allow me to shed some light on various aspects of my current life situation. I investigated the dosage ranges and was certain about the harmala dosage of 250mg. Concerning the DMT dosage, I limited myself to a range of 90-120mg and ended up deciding on 110mg.

The time was approximately 1 p.m. when I weighed the harmala and downed it with a glass of apple juice. The taste very much resembled bitter puke – There really doesn’t seem to be any other way to put it. Within 30 minutes I was definitely feeling something, which I described to my friend as being a very faint hazy filter across my eyes, as well as feelings of an ever so slight stuttering in my visual field. Another 10-15 minutes passed and I had the need to get up in order to take a piss. As soon as I entered the bathroom and turned on the light, I felt that I was surely under the influence of something. The feeling was very peculiar, as if my body was slowly becoming heavier and my perceptions were being altered in a very real manner. These effects were by no means any sort of revelation to me, but they seemed to be very distinct from anything I’ve experienced on other substances. I had also started to experience some slight alterations in my thought processes, as they became increasingly more analytical and clear.

When I hit the 55 minute mark after ingesting the harmala, I proceeded to drink the DMT in a glass of apple juice as I did earlier. In regards to the taste, I really didn’t seem to taste much except for the juice itself. I could identify that it was DMT, as the taste had a very slight resemblance to the smell of the compound. Almost immediately after drinking the DMT, I felt like something pushed me deeper into the experience. Within 10 minutes of ingestion my stomach began twisting and turning, which was accompanied by a very distinct texture alteration in my saliva. This is the clear indications of nausea that foretells the inevitable outcome – I had to get to the toilet and puke. At first I found myself to be in a lucky situation, as only a tiny bit of juice ended up in the toilet, but 5 minutes later I once again had to brace myself for what was coming. This time, however, I puked my guts out and it left me with an incredibly painful acidic burn in my throat. I realized at this point that I had probably failed my first attempt at Pharmahuasca, but I didn’t feel like redosing yet another ~100mg just to throw up once again. Instead, I decided to enjoy my first higher-dose harmalas experience and see what it had to offer.

As the harmala was slowly coming on I started to notice that my body had now gotten extremely heavy, along with an accompanying feeling of physical tiredness. Despite this seemingly heavy body load, I did feel more mentally clear than I have for months. I had a great memory recollection and I generally found that I was more quick witted than usual. As I was watching my friend play League of Legends on the television monitor, I got the feeling that as I was watching the television on the wall, I was also watching the television that was my entire vision. In other words, the life before my eyes unfolded like a movie or a theatrical play starring me as the protagonist. This feeling was very revelatory and freeing, as I was no longer bound by all the constraints that I usually set up for myself in my day-to-day life. Apart from this unconstrained observing awareness of life unfolding, I also gained a deeply analytical aspect to my thought processes. As I was watching the game, I wasn’t really paying attention to the actual gaming experience. Instead, I was busy analyzing the mechanics and what underlying programming went into making those mechanics possible. It was quite amusing to delve into the fundamental functioning of the game without actually being occupied with what occurred on the surface.

After a while I got tired of staring at the game and decided to just lay back in the bed with closed eyelids. I could’ve sworn I heard the sounds of some goblin creatures talking in my head. They became more noticeable the more I focused on this inner experience, but I honestly didn’t feel the push I needed to delve deeper into these sensations. Instead, I felt an intuitive sense that I had to explore and resolve some more personal matters. Therefore, I spent the next hour delving into past memories, such as social issues and controversies regarding my family. I also spent a great deal of time resolving some personal questions that I had in regards to direct experience, meditation, and the nature of knowing. I felt very positive and accomplished after I had sorted through these matters.

What I generally noted from the harmala experience was that I got strong sensations tied to the feeling of embracing the present moment. In other words, I truly connected with the feeling of observing every moment unfold by itself. This isn’t by any means a new or revelatory experience in any regard, but it was very reassuring and actually slightly surprising that it would be induced through the use of harmalas alone. This sensation of flanging gave my entire experience a very fresh, spontaneous, and light feeling. It was very much like drifting through life without any resistance, going fully with all the arisings and dissipations that appear and disappear in my awareness.

A couple of hours had passed at this point and I was definitely feeling the comedown, so I decided it would be a reasonable decision to vaporize some DMT. I loaded 2 baskets in my vaporizer, which would probably equate to around 30mg in total. I took it all in 2 huge lungfuls and held my breath for 30 seconds each time. By the first hit I instantly felt everything in the room, including myself, turning into a dense liquid substance. I noticed that the walls and the curtains were covered in fractals that formed from the shadows and wrinkles that made up the textures. The air became really heavy and I felt like a pressure was put on my lungs in order to breathe normally. These are all the regular effects from the immediate DMT onset, as well as the very recognizable rising pitch in the center of my head. As I took the second hit and lied back, I almost immediately forgot about the fact that I was holding in any vapor, as all of my attention was drawn to the infinitely vast fractal membrane gate that I'm always brought to before entering Hyperspace. After a while I remember that I need to exhale, and as I'm doing so, a very powerful and discernible DMT euphoria floods my entire body, like a large tidal wave covering the beach and smashing against the rock dunes that separate the street from the beach. A symbolic figure that I’ve encountered on 4 occasions thus far seemed to push against the membrane from the opposite side of it. The symbolic figure very much resembles the slim Buddha figurines sitting in the full lotus position with the cosmic hand mudra. As this symbolic appearance gets close enough to me, the membrane simply pops like a bubble being penetrated by a needle.

I then found myself in the presence of 3 entities that seemingly appeared to be recognizable from previous experiences, but this can in no way be assured. Firstly we were in a very Hyperspatial room where everything was made up of self-transforming fractal machinery, but shortly thereafter it shifted to a setting that appeared to be very human in nature. It’s really difficult to quantify in words, but it definitely didn’t contain much fractal machinery as many other Hyperspace places I’ve been to. Everything was completely white and it was definitely indoors. I could see something that I imagine to be windows of sorts – and outside there were definitely a lot of fractal-ish plant life in swaying colorations. The room itself resembled a large cafeteria, due to the arrangement of chairs, tables and couches. Although it had this somewhat pleasantly relaxing interior setting, the entire place felt very plastic-y and had a general feeling of being super sterile, like the cleanest hospital you could ever begin to imagine. It should probably also be noted that the room and entities themselves appeared more real, tangible and even physical than the computer and desk that I’m writing on in this very moment.

I spent a really long time in this room with the 3 entities, but I would not really be able to quantify how long exactly, due to the immense dilation that was put on time perception itself. What they showed me was incredibly beautiful and almost beyond belief. They spent most of their time in a sort of semi-weightless state, as if gravity had little impact on them. So in this manner, they appeared to be the most skilled acrobats, as they were so incredibly light on their fingers and toes. They showed me at one point that if I centered my focus and attention on every single moment, rather than processing an array of moments in order to make sense of them, I could literally slow down time through my will. Normally the entities move so rapidly that it’s hard to make out what’s really going on except some fast paced action, but with this newly acquired knowledge I could slow everything down to the point of almost stopping completely.

The way in which they handed me this informational knowledge was through their actions themselves. At one point one of the entities manifested a mug on the table containing some purely black liquid. It was then thrown into the air and time was slowed down to such a rate that the liquid actually turned into a solid that was now completely stuck in empty space. If you’ve seen liquid being released in a zero gravitational environment, as seen on space stations, you might get an idea of what this looked like. As time was slowly readjusted, the blob once again came into motion and fell to the ground. Witnessing this event was nothing less than magical and miraculous. In order to make their point even more clear, one of the entities jumped off a table and slowed time perception to such a degree that the entity was almost literally flying or gliding across the room in slow motion - Marvelous! The only other thing I recall happening in this environment was some playful activities revolving around this superbly interesting control over the perception of time. Mostly, however, I simply observed how the entities were fooling around and trying to get a grasp of the various things they tried to show me. I could’ve been in this room for anywhere between 3 hours to a couple of years. Determining the linear time intervals of experiences like these appears to be almost impossible, due to the lack of relevancy that one’s usual perception of time truly is.

After a while I found myself in another room, except this one very much resembled the geometric fractal places that I’ve visited several times now. The entire room was full of entities and they were performing the most extraordinary things that were completely beyond imagination. I got the sense that they were trying to be as completely unique and creative as they possibly could in every single moment. It very much correlates to a concept or notion that I’ve noticed on various psychedelic substances so far. The best way to describe it is through a short poem that I’ve written:

You are the film-maker, the painter and the sculptor.
You create forms of the formless.
Manifesting Yourself in every moment.
Expressing the all-pervasive being that is.
Imprinting You into the movie strip that is life.
Moment – By moment – By moment.


In other words, the meaning of life is to be original, genuine and spontaneous at any one moment. Or you could simply say that the meaning of it all is to acknowledge that you can never be anything but original, genuine and spontaneous. In this way, the entities were simply a truthful expression of this concept. The one thing that was most prominent during this experience was when 1 of the entities cornered me in the only corner that the room contained! It kept walking closer and closer to me, until I was squished up against the wall. One may have expected this to be a bad experience, but it was in fact nothing less than purely euphoric. The entity felt incredibly soft and mushy, like a big marshmallow. So it was actually really funny and delightful to be fully embedded into the soft tissue of this being. Once I was completely squished, the entity started melting on me like ice cream in a sauna! The feeling was indescribable and surreal, but I can assure you it was amazing.

A lot of things happened after this experience, but my memory seems to completely neglect anything that occurred in the immediate moments after being in this room. The next thing I do remember is that I’m in a room at the size of a Rubik’s cube. This was truly the peak of the entire trip, as it was at this moment that I lost all my layers of humanity. I was literally being stripped like an onion being peeled to the core. This was most definitely the most intense experience I’ve ever undergone so far. I feel disgraceful for even attempting to contain an experience of this caliber in puny words. It was beyond anything and everything that could ever be grasped or held. I have written yet another poem that fits into this experience perfectly:

Beyond words, concepts and ideas.
This singular experience resides.
Found within every moment,
unbound by the constraints of time,
a space within space itself.


The only other way I can articulate this experience, is through the concept of ego death. I simply existed as what I am, nothing else. Contrary to a former ego death experience on LSD, what I encountered during this experience was nothing less than pure bliss and love. And even so, these terms don’t even seem great enough to describe this indescribably wondrous experience. I literally existed and have always existed as this spacious awareness for eternity. There’s no other way to put it. I really wish I had the ability to further articulate this experience and comment on the visions that I saw, but it is simply impossible to go into details about anything regarding what I went through. One thing I can note, however, is that the visions were as bright as 1000 suns; and yet despite this, I’ve never been able to see so clearly in my entire existence. In fact, there was nothing else aside from pure sight and observation itself. No thinking, no feeling, no thing at all. Just THIS.

Everyone has heard the notion that death is supposedly an illusion, but now I know with absolute certainty that there is no such thing. There is no way I can convey this realization to anybody, but it is definitely a knowing that I don’t think can ever be surpassed by anything.

After I had resided in this everlasting and infinite space of myself for what seemed like eternity, I started to regain bits of my humanity and, eventually, my identity as well. I then found myself in the presence of some entities that I’ve definitely met before. They gave me a communication bubble, which I held in my hands, that I could use to convey telepathic thoughts to them. This is an experience that I’ve only encountered when I’ve been interacting with entities on salvia, so it was really interesting to experience it on DMT as well. I’ve covered what goes into this interactive experience on former reports, but if I were to quickly cover it again, I’d say that it feels like I get some peculiar feeling emanating from my hands. It is as if my thought processes can be manifested through the use of hand gestures that are synchronized to the pace of thinking. In this way, it is possible to convey messages back and forth between these entities in a clearer and more direct manner. The physical feeling that accompanies this experience is very similar to having your hands in dense jello. Although I was in this open space with the entities where communication was freely available, I didn’t have anything to ask or converse about. And by this point, the experience slowly began to fade away.

I left the experience feeling like I had been completely reconstructed as a new human being; call it reborn if you will. As mentioned previously, this was by far the most intensely world shattering experience I’ve ever undergone. Thereby, it naturally has made a significant impact on me afterwards. Although I only went through some personal matters in regards to the harmala experience alone, I did get some deeper insight into the nature of myself and reality through DMT, which truly is invaluable. A couple of hours after this experience I decided to vaporize a dosage equivalent to about 20mg of DMT. However, I will not cover that experience in this report due to the lack of anything significant taking place in conjunction with the fact that I can’t recollect most of the things that did in fact take place. I’ll just assure you of one thing - Hyperspace is a truly magical place beyond human comprehension, so treat the experience with the respect and honesty that it deserves.

Comments  

+8 # scottyboy 2015-06-07 09:47
extremely well spoken bonne!, I completely enjoyed reading this, and it has definitely stoked my little fire for the 'huasca experience! im now positively anxious to introduce harmalas
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+4 # He 2015-06-25 19:36
awesome report resonated with my own exp
I have not touched DMT for over a year
since a hyperspace experience on a mix of
Blue Lotus, Cannabis, a very small amount of Datura w/100mg of Dmt
I put all my lessons and experience levels in three cat.
1.Mushrooms, LSD = Looking thru to other realms or dimensions
2. Lemon Tek mega dose of Shrooms or full dose of DMT = being in alt dimensions and communicating with plant spirits entities or god
3. Large dose of DMT on the back of a full dose of Shrooms = wa wa weee wah where we actually become the other dimensions, the fractals, entities ,God and all matter and anti matter. Full spectrum download, when languages of strange pop click phonetics flowed from my tounge, exceptional insights into science, design, nature intuition and even telepathic skills are amped up. (in a way that seems quite permanent even now)
Thanks so much for your report it, i required a re-emphasis on what I was shown :)
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